Too quick

I had to weight myself today, I just had to, I had been walking around the farm with the kids. I'd thought I lost some pounds but in fact that my wife pointed out that I had ate way too much.  At least it werent junk food but still I need to cut down on my potion sizes I guess.  Maybe the weigh in was abit wrong. I weighed myself when I just woke up. I still need to do a large poo that was in my system.

Im the same weight has last week. Tomorrow will be the offical weigh in. Lets hope I've lost some

Since my kids were taken ill my weight has been on a roller coaster ride. Ive hit max at 121kg and thought I still cut out junk food alittle but it icecream and still loose weight I was so wrong.
Then I hit 126kg and then again I thought i would be alright, but the lack of exercise and healthy food intake took its toll when I hit the 136kg mark this morning.
Even thou I have been eating healthyish last week I still managed to eat roast pototoes alot of erm, sausages from Germany and green machha icecream.
I know where I've put it on, not from eating chocolate so much but the icecream called super cups!! only 75yen for 200ml flavours, of Vanillia, green tea, chocolate chip, mint choc, and now cookie and vanilla. Also stopping at the convience store and eating sweet bread that over 500cal for one item. (crazy stuff)
I dont scale anymore

Getting picked on

Things I do, even the right things I do I seem to get moaned at from MIL or even Ychan now gee!!
I feel that I cant do anything right. So what do I do to try to avoid all the moaning.
Maybe I shouldnt meet them. At least they cant moan if they dont see my actions or my way of thinking.

I'm getting abit sick and tired tbh.

My wife must be getting sick and tired too, coz she is in the middle of it. They moan at me. Then they moan to my wife about me :(

Was it the right decsion to build the house so near to MIL home. Time will tell . . . . . .

20kg up

6-5 months on, thats the weight I put on. Ive been letting myself go big time. I didnt care what I drank or ate.
I think yesterday really hit home that I need to stop this big bing and cont the way I was before when the twins werent born.
I hadnt shaved for a week, my wife stepped on my glasses breaking the nose part, I have to wear tracksuit pants coz all my shorts were in the wash.  I was hot and sweaty, these all added up for me feeling like shit and feeling that I was a BUM! A TRAMP!!!
Thats the feeling I didnt want.

I could blame the twins that started it all off. I could blame the wife and MIL for giving me stress that I wasnt helping enough. BUT THE FACT IS THAT I HAVE DECISIONS THAT I CAN MAKE TO EAT OR NOT TO EAT THE FOODS THAT I CHOOSE!!

SO whats changed, I've determine to start eating healthy again, avoid going to the convience store and buying sweet candies and sweet bread.  Need to get my puncture fixed and start riding again.

6kg (10pounds ) in a week

Put on 6kg in a week. Everyday I pigged out big time on chocolate and Icecream!!!

Worth it? Hell yes it curbed my angry! My pissed off status!!

All 3 kids were in hospital for 8 days with pneumonia. Big stress on me from the family in ways it made me depressed and angry. 

In many ways I dont want to meet the my wifes mother.  I just want to smash her face in!!!  E.g she came into my home yesterday b4 my sons lunch I tried to get him to put his books away, and he was doing it, she said go wash your hands.

The point of my exercise is so he cleans up after himself,

He left the books and ran off to the bathroom with his Grandmother.  I really wanted to say something to her, but wife just shook her head and stopped me.
WTF!!  
IF this cont I will say something hopefully in a nice way!!!



Now after a week or so I've calmed down. Ive been reading how to try and control my short temper!! From the weekend Ive been a good boy with clean eats.

The only problem I seem to have is trying to get back into exercise, feel really lazy, dont want to go out I just want to sleep.

Rocky road

The last few weeks Ive been around the 116 to 114kg mark, going up one week going down the next week going up again. I know that my healthy eating has not been so good. My exercise has been stop on thou

This week Ill be really strict on the sweet stuff. Waiting for Saturday when Yuki big day will be.

Ive been cycling to work a round trip is about 23km. Ill try and do it 4 times a week. Just a little worried what the office will say about my travel expensive since I aint using the car but its going way to get some exercise in b4 and after work.

I cant get and do it when the kids are about but it better than nothing

notes that have happened while been on hols

Some updates that should be posted in here

Jun kun is now getting a wee jealous of the twins. When he wakes up Chiho puts one up into the cot.  Let it be, it he hits just tell him thats the wrong idea. She got the idea not to tell off JUn too much.

Jun is now saying I love you its so cute, he knows to count to 1 to 10. He knows many of the English alphabet too.  (I think I need to brush him up on that abit more)

Jun loving the ball more and more now, Im trying to get out the house as much as possible and let him enjoy the fresh air also gets me out and doing abit of spirits while in the park with him ;)

Cherry blossoms started to blossom the final week of March 26th until the 6th the high winds blew alot of the flowers of the trees! Getting warmer this time around this time too.  22 degrees or so.

Myself, Im at 115.2kg at the moment weigh in is tomorrow abit gutted that Im still at this mark and no other.  Ok the week b4 last I went crazy but Ive been good this week. Just have to keep moving alot and dont let it bother me too much.
Clothes are getting looser and my suits are getting bigger. It seems harder that Im not moving the weight so fast but thats due to the fact Im busy with my family or is that just an excuse.  Need to go out more and do some walking ;9

Im cycling to school so that might help out abit ;) took me 40mins today. abit slow but ill get there again.

Bob and Val are in Japan for 20 days now they bought me peanut butter, rolled oats and protein drink. I wonder if they let me off or will I have to pay . I think Ill be paying but it sure be nice if they said dont worry about it  ;)

20th of April Yuki and Hiroshi is getting married. They came for that.
He is abit weird very quiet and very strange, so b4 the wedding they will go out and eat with the his mom and dad, on THE WEDDING NIGHT THEY WILL EAT OUT TOGETHER.!! Not having a party after with us friends and family!! Really shitty tbh!!!!

I wonder what it be like when we have a bbq and he says something like Im going to only pay 500yen coz i dont eat so much! LOL I will laugh so much that it will be rude!! DUde sTOP BEING A TIGHT ASS!!!!!!!