Nothing has changed...

Around the same weight, tbh its getting worst, and recently I crave for snickers bars.

Contining from The previous most lets me explain it about more clear.
On Saturday was Chubu dai ichi gakko School festival, every year, I tend to go late I tend not really care, but this year I actually took part in it. I was lead singer in the band called egg's Japan (its called that coz the other member belong into a store that makes Takoyaki) They also played X from a band called X Japan.

The song that I sang was Basketcase by Green Day i must have sang that song at least 15 times at day, I had it on repeat going to and from school, I'd listen to it at home on youtube. When the band played it thou, I was either too slow or too fast. LOL we practise till midnight one night.
For some reason I would stand sideways and not at the front, I guess i find it embarrassing to stand there in front of all the kids. I solved that my wearing sunglasses ;)

So I had a silly idea that I would shave off all my hair so the students would focus on my head and not my voice. Did it work? lol I dont know but the students seem to go more crazy after I took my head towel off me head when I sang the 2nd verse!!
I had alot of fun that day, I hope to sing next year. So Im looking for some easy songs to sing

Did i say i was that? well its looks like 157.6kg yes that right? Holy fuck! Thats huge, To top it off Chubu school festival was held and I was a member of Egg's Japan, I sang Basketcase and even thou I was out of tune with the band it was a good day.
But after seeing the photos of me placed on facebook from Chikachan, a horrid fat me. Its so sick to see me in those photos.
Focus

Focus

and Focus

I'd scare them off

If vampires were real I'd be immuned to them, over the past week ive been in Canada, every day ive eaten alot of garlic. Garlic mash, garlic in the pasta dish, garlic bread, roasted garlic and brie, enchiladas, thai food

On top of that I've drank everyday, either beer, or red wine. ;) Actually on bobs birthday i never due to the fact that i was travelling home the next day and didnt want to feel shitty

oh btw just a little reminder 148.4kg

Itchy legs

Itchy legs is that what I have, but I wasnt in Japan, I was in Canada Vancouver. We are staying in Burnaby in our friends house. After a great dinner of roast beer, garlic mash pots, brocilla and lump gravy. (that I made that.. DOH) and a few glasses of wine.

We went out for a walk for Bob to show us how to get from his house to the Skytrain. After that we walked down to the Burnaby lake. We saw a beaver chewing on some lillies, about a metre from us on the side of the lake. We walked back on the trail and soon it was getting dark. Pitch black at the end of the trail. LOL a short walk was not to be. We must be walking 2hrs or so. My legs were so itchy I guess its from all the bloody moving around its not used to that.

I can feel..

I can feel my own belly against my top of my legs where my belly is hanging over and to be honest its a horrible feeling. Such a bad feeling that I feel so uncomfortable.
Such a bad feeling where I dont want to be seating down I prefer lying down to avoid that kind of feeling.

I still eat my cola mentors once a week a treat to myself ;)
In the supermarkets Watermelons and peaches are ready to buy but at the moment the peaches are really overpriced!! I love my fruit but I wont fork out on overpriced even thou I love fruit. When I return to England the fruit in England is so cheap and seedless grapes are just the best, I could eat them allday, everyday.

Yet again I've woken up at 3am to watch the world cup Uruguay against Netherlands. I really enjoyed the game even thou I wasnt feeling so good with the heat in my tv room and the sleepness and tiredness of me. Ppl never understand why get up so early to watch a football game, but I deeply love the game. Esp World cup games, European games and the Priemership games the other football sucks ass to be quiet Frank. Japanese football is like watching English football on a Sunday League football pub league. It really bores the pants out of me.
Back to the World Cup where the Netherlands won in a great game to watch as a Neutral supporter final result Uruguay 2-3 Netherlands.

REBOUND REBOUND

Since Monday Ive been back trying to lose my weight again. I haven't weighted myself that day but I saw myself at 144kg a few days before. The problem is that my home scales is the maximum of 140kg. Yeah I know since January my weight has increased all the time and I said I'd done something about it, but I never did and it came a time when now I only have a few clothes that fit me again and that I get really moody coz of me being so fat.

So I wonder why did I let my mind and will let loose and lose all momentum when I got to 130kg in January... maybe after getting Chicken pox I really didnt care about things and really just fancied eatting what i want and not care of my body...

I cant understand why ppl get into a rebound state thou, u hit that cycle of the way u eat, the way u wake up and live ur life and contiune to do that. Many times I said I would get back in the way of losing weight I focus on a few days then forget about it and go back to the old horrible ways. Stop going swimming, stop walking in the mornings, stop using my mountain bike, stop eating healthier food. You get in a way and its hard to stop doing the easy life, the lazy life.

I know its only a day has gone past but I feel that Im focused again. Ive stopped buying food, sweet bread from the convience stores. I think the next big step for me is to start making my own obento boxes again. Getsu, Ka and Sui I buy obento boxes for me and two other teachers at 262 yen for then its dirt cheap but Im sure they are high in calories thou I tend to buy for me what I think would be low calorie obento boxes.

Lets keep my fingers crossed and try getting it down again