I should be happy but feel

NOV 26TH 132KG DEC 3RD 131.4KG

I should be happy but feel not so great. I guess Im expecting to much lost of weight per week. Ok I lost 1.3 pounds this week but I expected to lose about 2 pounds or just 1kg.

This week I havent rode my bicycle to work I just been walking in the morning and an hour at night,.
TBH its really cold I cant feel my ears, my feet or my fingers.. I have gloves and extra pair of socks but I need something for my ears and until I dont. I wont be riding the bicycle to work.

If it aint raining Im cycling

 132.4kg 19th Nov
 133 kg   12th Nov
If it aint raining Im cycling to work my wife said at the beginning of the week.
Everyday I cycled to work so far, thou Thursday will my rest day from the bicycle. I think my legs and ass will be happy for that!!!

Ive hit the gym twice so far, and the first time I overdid it like always.  The 2nd time I did all that I could do within the time limit i had.
I think drinking the protein drink is better when I get down to the 110kg and then start drinking erm.  Getting the protein from the food that I eat is plenty. Thou I have to eat at least 3 chickens to do that.

About the kids!
Jun is talking more, both in Japanese and English, He used Lets go to yesterday. It was great to hear him speak English.
When he starts to go to Kindergarden school. I want Chiho to start talking to him in English and not Japanese!!
Kei is climbing alot more and able to stand up for 10 secs without holding on to anything!!
Kou is now crawling but using his upper body to crawl and really dont use his legs.  He is also fighting back when kei takes his toys!

11/05/2013  133.0

10/28/2013  135.0

10/21/2013  135.6

10/14/2013  135.6

For a few weeks now, I havent posted anything up I've been so busy. By the time I have free time for the last thing I want to do is be typing this up here.  It seems the only time I can update this blog is when I have free period at work or in my lunch break.

U can see the progress Im making again. 
Ive been forced to cycle to work. The wife needs the car to be driving up to the land a few times a day to see the different people. What work has been done. The house is only like 15mins by walking from our home but with 3 kids its hard to walk up there with the double buggy and one kid on ur back. Trust me I know!!
Jun will seat in the front seat, Kei or Kou in the back seat and either kei or kou on the back.

Too quick

I had to weight myself today, I just had to, I had been walking around the farm with the kids. I'd thought I lost some pounds but in fact that my wife pointed out that I had ate way too much.  At least it werent junk food but still I need to cut down on my potion sizes I guess.  Maybe the weigh in was abit wrong. I weighed myself when I just woke up. I still need to do a large poo that was in my system.

Im the same weight has last week. Tomorrow will be the offical weigh in. Lets hope I've lost some

Since my kids were taken ill my weight has been on a roller coaster ride. Ive hit max at 121kg and thought I still cut out junk food alittle but it icecream and still loose weight I was so wrong.
Then I hit 126kg and then again I thought i would be alright, but the lack of exercise and healthy food intake took its toll when I hit the 136kg mark this morning.
Even thou I have been eating healthyish last week I still managed to eat roast pototoes alot of erm, sausages from Germany and green machha icecream.
I know where I've put it on, not from eating chocolate so much but the icecream called super cups!! only 75yen for 200ml flavours, of Vanillia, green tea, chocolate chip, mint choc, and now cookie and vanilla. Also stopping at the convience store and eating sweet bread that over 500cal for one item. (crazy stuff)
I dont scale anymore

Getting picked on

Things I do, even the right things I do I seem to get moaned at from MIL or even Ychan now gee!!
I feel that I cant do anything right. So what do I do to try to avoid all the moaning.
Maybe I shouldnt meet them. At least they cant moan if they dont see my actions or my way of thinking.

I'm getting abit sick and tired tbh.

My wife must be getting sick and tired too, coz she is in the middle of it. They moan at me. Then they moan to my wife about me :(

Was it the right decsion to build the house so near to MIL home. Time will tell . . . . . .

20kg up

6-5 months on, thats the weight I put on. Ive been letting myself go big time. I didnt care what I drank or ate.
I think yesterday really hit home that I need to stop this big bing and cont the way I was before when the twins werent born.
I hadnt shaved for a week, my wife stepped on my glasses breaking the nose part, I have to wear tracksuit pants coz all my shorts were in the wash.  I was hot and sweaty, these all added up for me feeling like shit and feeling that I was a BUM! A TRAMP!!!
Thats the feeling I didnt want.

I could blame the twins that started it all off. I could blame the wife and MIL for giving me stress that I wasnt helping enough. BUT THE FACT IS THAT I HAVE DECISIONS THAT I CAN MAKE TO EAT OR NOT TO EAT THE FOODS THAT I CHOOSE!!

SO whats changed, I've determine to start eating healthy again, avoid going to the convience store and buying sweet candies and sweet bread.  Need to get my puncture fixed and start riding again.

6kg (10pounds ) in a week

Put on 6kg in a week. Everyday I pigged out big time on chocolate and Icecream!!!

Worth it? Hell yes it curbed my angry! My pissed off status!!

All 3 kids were in hospital for 8 days with pneumonia. Big stress on me from the family in ways it made me depressed and angry. 

In many ways I dont want to meet the my wifes mother.  I just want to smash her face in!!!  E.g she came into my home yesterday b4 my sons lunch I tried to get him to put his books away, and he was doing it, she said go wash your hands.

The point of my exercise is so he cleans up after himself,

He left the books and ran off to the bathroom with his Grandmother.  I really wanted to say something to her, but wife just shook her head and stopped me.
WTF!!  
IF this cont I will say something hopefully in a nice way!!!



Now after a week or so I've calmed down. Ive been reading how to try and control my short temper!! From the weekend Ive been a good boy with clean eats.

The only problem I seem to have is trying to get back into exercise, feel really lazy, dont want to go out I just want to sleep.

Rocky road

The last few weeks Ive been around the 116 to 114kg mark, going up one week going down the next week going up again. I know that my healthy eating has not been so good. My exercise has been stop on thou

This week Ill be really strict on the sweet stuff. Waiting for Saturday when Yuki big day will be.

Ive been cycling to work a round trip is about 23km. Ill try and do it 4 times a week. Just a little worried what the office will say about my travel expensive since I aint using the car but its going way to get some exercise in b4 and after work.

I cant get and do it when the kids are about but it better than nothing

notes that have happened while been on hols

Some updates that should be posted in here

Jun kun is now getting a wee jealous of the twins. When he wakes up Chiho puts one up into the cot.  Let it be, it he hits just tell him thats the wrong idea. She got the idea not to tell off JUn too much.

Jun is now saying I love you its so cute, he knows to count to 1 to 10. He knows many of the English alphabet too.  (I think I need to brush him up on that abit more)

Jun loving the ball more and more now, Im trying to get out the house as much as possible and let him enjoy the fresh air also gets me out and doing abit of spirits while in the park with him ;)

Cherry blossoms started to blossom the final week of March 26th until the 6th the high winds blew alot of the flowers of the trees! Getting warmer this time around this time too.  22 degrees or so.

Myself, Im at 115.2kg at the moment weigh in is tomorrow abit gutted that Im still at this mark and no other.  Ok the week b4 last I went crazy but Ive been good this week. Just have to keep moving alot and dont let it bother me too much.
Clothes are getting looser and my suits are getting bigger. It seems harder that Im not moving the weight so fast but thats due to the fact Im busy with my family or is that just an excuse.  Need to go out more and do some walking ;9

Im cycling to school so that might help out abit ;) took me 40mins today. abit slow but ill get there again.

Bob and Val are in Japan for 20 days now they bought me peanut butter, rolled oats and protein drink. I wonder if they let me off or will I have to pay . I think Ill be paying but it sure be nice if they said dont worry about it  ;)

20th of April Yuki and Hiroshi is getting married. They came for that.
He is abit weird very quiet and very strange, so b4 the wedding they will go out and eat with the his mom and dad, on THE WEDDING NIGHT THEY WILL EAT OUT TOGETHER.!! Not having a party after with us friends and family!! Really shitty tbh!!!!

I wonder what it be like when we have a bbq and he says something like Im going to only pay 500yen coz i dont eat so much! LOL I will laugh so much that it will be rude!! DUde sTOP BEING A TIGHT ASS!!!!!!!

Its been awhile

I havent posted for a long time, Im still in a healthy mode!
I havent written due to the fact that Ive not been at work. I only seem to write it when I have a free period at work

Ive got down to 116.4kg now!!! 

Alot has changed over the last month, the twins were born. Kei and Kou. Im looking after Jun while the twins are at my motherinlaws home with my wife and twins.

Execise ways are different now I can just go out and do something. Unless my son at the wife's moms house.  Sometimes I sneak off while Jun might be sleeping at the wifes mom house. but its not like everyday where I could go and do exercise. I really miss it
Can u believe I just said that >.<

I write b4 that Okaasan would say something about the twins names of Kei and Kou that the cousins are similar well not really in Kousuke and Keisuke!!! She told us to change it on the last but one day!
Fuck,ing noway am I doing that, I let her think she could do that but I was happy with Kei and Kou we had been thinking for along time about it.  She did agree on the last day but the Kanjii for kei (happiness) can also be reed has Sachi and its more like a girls name. So we changed it in a way I prefer the new kanjii has it has something to do with water in with it.

Ive come to work today to tell my work about my timetable and to use the gym. I thiink Ill hit the weights today and do 20mins on the bicycle and in the evening just do the HIIT for 50mins or so.

Twins were born

 My wife went to hospital last Wednesday night, I looked after my son on my own for the first time >.< by Friday I was very ill. My Sunday I recovered barely to take him back off my motherinlaws hands. Its now gonna be Wednesday soon, he is now asleep. Everynight I take him to bed I dont want to sleep I have to do jobs around the house, but I always wake up the next morning with him >.< Tonight Im was determined not to sleep. I have to admit I thought it would be a walk in a a park looking after him I was so wrong, I just need to be more organized. The babies are due on the 21st of this month


 Crunch time: I havent done any cardio or going to the gym for a week been ill and looking after my son. Today I asked the motherinlaw to look over him, Ill bring him to the house, Ill put him to sleep for his lunch time nap (sleeps well over 2 hours ) then I can pop to the gym.
Nope she says she needs rest. Erm u dont have to nothing just I need someone to be there just in case he wakes up.
Nope I need my rest time.
WTF Is that?

Oh well so I cant rely on her anymore. Time to google and hit bodyweight exercises at home. ;(




Hit the gym last night, still not right, felt light headed after. Maybe didnt have enough enegry. My appetite is slowly coming back. . .
Probably should have waited until I was fully good. oh well . .

I reached my first goal! Of getting to 120kg I will recieve a 50 dollars off a friend. Next target is 115kg (wedding weight,10 years ago)

On the 21st of Feb at 2.27pm and 2.29pm two boys were born
Baby I is 2860g 49cm
Baby II is at 2610g 50cm

My son is very hyper!!! High tension the last few days he hasnt slept in his afternoon nap.

THe twins names havent been decided yet. Either going to be Kei and Kou or Masa and Kei. but ccould be a slight problem coz the cousins in the family have a keisuke and kousuke I dont think its a problem but I think MIL will and maybe my wife will...  


 Confirmed!!! Its seems I cant take a timeout to go to the gym, pool or go for a cycle. I wont have time >.< well definitely need to find an alternative

Down but not out . . .

I've been down, I even went to the gym today did my routine, half feeling sorry for myself.
Manage to do it eventually, but after riding home, I guess many ppl have been in my situation and many
just get over with it and try to contiune to do there daily life. So I said outloud stop being a wussy and get over it!!
So this evening I tried to brighten myself up. Trying to think positive and trying to focus again.
I guess we all have them days. I have never felt like that before. want to try and avoid it again but I have to do them squats!!!

121kg Well 121.4kg

121kg Well 121.4kg (19 stone)
Thats the lowest I have ever been in Japan.  Im 7 pounds off being my wedding weight at 18.5 stone!!
I cant weigh.
Sunday went to the pool by cycling only to find out that the pool was closed very pissed, so went to buy chicken.
Monday I hit the pool since I finished early. Then went to work in the evening and then hit the gym in the evening about 7 and did 45mins on the bicycle.
Tuesday I hit the gym and then the pool (maybe too much) coz after I felt so tired and drained. I hit the sack straight after I got home.. took no shower was extremely tired

Near misses

Yesterday I went to the Udon shop in Seto but went a different way. Not sure if I missed it the shop or not I looked over my shoulder while turning right on a main road. When I looked back a crane truck swerved to miss me to the right of me. At first I thought wat the dude is doing after some foul lingo addressed to me. I realized what had happened and apologised.  In the udon shop I explained it to Kojiima san and she said that the gods looked upon down on u.
i was very lucky indeed. I thought I need to tell someone and she adviced me to not to tell my wife. I was nervous and couldnt believe my luck.
Then in the evening after swimming and kempo I drove to Tsutsuya video store. On the way out reversing out of the car space.  I heard a beep beep beep I looked in my mirrors to see a mini in the rear. (with no lights on) maybe if he had his lights on I would have seen him.
I moved forward to back space. He stopped his car just to give me a evil stare and drove away.

Ive been lucky twice that day. Thank you!!
 

Windy winter

I have never remembered a winter where its been so windy. Its a pain in the ass really cant get out and cycle. Lets hope next winter isnt so!!!
I  know I can hit the stationary bike but it aint the same has the real thing.

Walking everyday really helping u lose weight

 123kg (19.3 stone) (lost of 0.6kg or 1.3 pounds)

Walking everyday. Thats whats my thinking was in the month of Janurary but after 19th days. If I didnt go and do my cycling in that week. I think I would be the same weight. Srsly I walk 5.65km in the morning before breakfast.

Ill hit the bicycle the weekend at some point and go for a swim on Sunday for an hour.
Monday is normally my rest day. On Monday morning I didnt go for a walk but in the evening I pushed myself to go to the gym and going cycling for 45mins increasing every minute up to 5 go to 160 and reset at 75 then increased it by 10 resist every 2 mins.

Well from the 1st of Jan I've been on a new program that I have to count macros (protein, carbs and fat). It like counting calories but with more depth since u dont count calories u count whats inside the food rather than just the energy.
It seems that the protein intake is rather high and when trying on weight lifting days its much higher and carbs intake is HUGE.

At first it was hard to eat so much food esp with the carbs, but I think I'Ve sorted it out if I eat a fruit for breakfast and get my carbs past 100 I'm on target ;)
I know I have to eat grapefruit, apple, orange & banana.  Eat edamame in between breakfast and lunch. 
Its seems a lot to digest but the trainer says just trust him in the system. TBH thank god its only twice a week that I need to eat big carbs ;)

Overdid it but who cares!!!

On the 29th DEC was party with my close friends and while were talking about my weight. I found out 

After finding out that the bet with Hiroyuki is until May to hit the 120kg target to win 5000yen. 
No wonder he is been giving me bread, and sweet bread to keep my weight up but little does he know that I just give to my wife and if my wife cant eat them all she will share with Okaasan or just freeze them.

Yesterday 7th, after we hit Kitanoyu ( Public bath) Hiroyuki said that we should try the new restaurant that open that eat has much has u like for 90mins added with sushi and beef shabu shabu.

I tried to eat healthy and ate only sushi I took off the fish and left the rice.  Salad belonged to sweetcorn, salad leaves and abit of Potato salad.   I ate only roast slices of beef and tried to avoid the fats,

We both ate too much and we abit sick coz of it, our stomachs full!!
After this, I felt guilty that I eat too much and that tomorrow weigh in would be a disaster so I decided to walk it off.
I took a nap with Jun for an hour. Woke up and went for a walk for an hour.

After work, I walked for another 2 hours.  Doing a total of 21.95km or 13.5 miles that day >.<  Probably too much, but I just didnt want to be disappointed for the weigh in.